Yes well I...

Yes well I tried to change my picture so something really morbid and sick but it didnt work. Suck. Today was normal, except when Ada bitched at me....that just eh kind of brought me down. I got to talk to Rita though, yay. Im still failing all of my classes miserably, but oh well. I wish I could still block everything out...I did it for two years, you would think that I could do it a little fucking longer. Apparently I cant, and it sucks- now Im just always sad and I hate myself for it. I feel guilty when I want attention even though I know people who crave it even more obsessively than I do. I just wish people would start caring again. I try really hard to be there for everyone, but maybe I dont do as good of a job as I always thought. Hmmm, just something to think about. YAY lee carnival this friday. YAY parents going out of town for 5 days. Im excited anyway...well sort of.