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i cant sleep. ive totally messed up my sleeping schedule. i go to sleep at 4am and cant even begin to wake up until 1:30. its really annoying because sleeping in late makes me feel blah the rest of the day. well i dont really have anything to say so im gonna talk about Ben S. its weird because i think hes kinda hot but our personalities really dont match up at all. plus he really intimidates me for some reason. actually all guys do i think its because my dad was always a really dominant person and would always get mad easily, and criticize me. grrrr its really annoying because im now really really shy and i hate it!!!!!!!! i cant even have a normal conversation with a person if i havnt known them for a long time. also im super sensitive around certain people and ive learned to hide my feelings. like whenever im sad ill hide it so people dont see that im hurt and try to make me feel better because for some reason that makes me uncomfortable even though i appreciate the fact that people care about me and are trying to make me feel better. i dunno im just weird. i also always have to have a crush. if i dont have a person to like ill feel sort of empty and blah. sigh.. Tibet..........